I’m Ashley Boe Rae & welcome to Letting Boe Rae Shine.
I feel like I’ve spent years letting online gurus and health studies dictate and justify almost every decision I’ve made when it comes to my “health” and weight. Gluten free will make me skinny?! OK! If she’s doing intermittent fasting than I guess I’ll try it too. I can only have kombucha and beef liver for 6 weeks? That sounds expensive and incredibly disgusting, but OK!
Not once did I ever stop to ask myself what seemed right to me. I felt like I couldn’t be trusted to do anything right, ESPECIALLY when it came to my weight or body. I had never trusted myself because I had never fully loved myself. I had never fully loved myself because I had never been skinny. And I had never been skinny because I was always in the middle of some kind of “binge and purge” dance. See the pattern here?
After years of torture research & lots of soul-searching, I’ve finally decided that enough is enough. I’m ready to become my own hero for once and fully let go of these crazy obsessions that are keeping me sick and stuck, and start living more freely and intuitively. I’m ready to learn how to respect my hunger and “trust my gut”, instead of just ignoring and hating it. I’m ready to be who I want to be, do what I want to do, and live a fun life that I’m proud of. No one else’s permission or guidelines required.
This is going to be a wild and bumpy adventure for me. Eating disorders are rarely just about weight and food, so there are lots of layers to my story. In my case it was also about filling voids, finding approval, feeling in control, and a dozen other things. I’m hoping that blogging will help give me the motivation to get started and the confidence to keep going. I’m hoping it will help keep me accountable for actually doing the work and living out my “experiment” to the fullest.
I don’t have any quick fixes or tricks up my sleeve. All I have is a head full of stories, and my bullshit free opinions to share. I have a new “boss lady” attitude waiting to take over, and a heart that is 100% ready to open up and let go. Oh, and LOTS of jewelry to make and books to review :]
If you’re interested in anything I have to say or do on here, I hope you’ll take the time to comment or message me so we can get to know each other. If you want to be extra awesome you can subscribe and share my posts with anyone you know who might need some sunshine in their day <3
SHORT DISCLAIMER SO YOU DON’T TRY TO SUE ME!
I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL NUTRIONALIST OR DOCTOR! THIS IS A PERSONAL BLOG MEANT FOR ENTERTAINMENT, NOT A MEDICAL BOOK MEANT TO DIAGNOSE ANYONE. IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE AN EATING DISORDER PLEASE SEEK PROFESSIONAL HELP IMMEDIATELY. I AM NOT HERE TO PROVIDE ANY KIND OF MEDICAL, LEGAL, OR OTHER PROFESSIONAL ADVICE. IF YOU DO TRY ANYTHING MENTIONED HERE, YOU ARE DOING SO AT YOUR OWN RISK.