I’ve decided that lettingboeraeshine, is going to get a makeover.
August turned out to be an awesome month, filled with lots of “light bulb” moments, “wtf, really dude?!” moments, “I’m so happy I could cry” moments, and even one “how do you know so much about oops I crapped my pants?” moment (thanks random guy at HEB for turning my bad day into an amazing day)
Anyways… I’ve had a few things pop up on here that have shown me that I’m not ready or truly interested in “saving everybody” like I thought I was/wanted to
I’ve had a few things pop up in my “real life” that have shown me that I already have a tribe, and that I need/want to focus on loving and “saving” them 1st.
If you’ve read my older post 8/30/15, you know that this time last year, I was not in a good place.
Luckily I can say things did turn around. I did get and continue to do better. Even if sometimes it feels like I’m constantly taking one step forward and two steps back. Either way, I’m making it. I lost the weight I gained back that summer, Joe is healed and riding his dirt bike all over the place again, our marriage is better than ever, we’re out of our old house and into a place of our own.
Things are good.
I want to keep writing, but I’m not going to continue do so with the hope or intentions of saving anyone. Not myself, not you, not your momma, Nobody.
I’m not Tom Cruise, I can’t save everyone.
And I think it’ll be better this way. I’ve loved being able to get to know and help some folks though here, but in order to keep my sanity in check, I need to step back from all the “recovery talk” and move forward. Which really was the whole point of this blog from the beginning…But then things went this way, then that way, and yeah… No more.
I’m sure some of my posts will still be “preachy and feel goody” because that’s just how I am. Especially when I get “excited” about certain things… But since some of my goals and opinions have changed this year, naturally, “all this” is going to change too. So maybe I’ll just write about old SNL skits and my dog all the time now…who knows….
But whatever. It’s September, and I freaking love September. Because that means October is just around the corner, and if you don’t love October than you’re just wrong 😉